A forgotten Summer

Contents


  1. Summer sun
  2. i never said
  3. It was love
  4. I walked the hills alone
  5. You’re more than a photograph
  6. You: Before anyone
  7. it remains
  8. Bristly thistle
  9. Light of the manipulated belief


1. Summer sun


In the summer sun

I remember all of the fun

From years gone by

With moments unforgotten

(Or at least to me)

They remain in the mind

Where others have let them go

It is for me to remember

The summer sun

It must have been fun

Nowhere to run

Other than into your arms

With the sun as my energy

The world at our feet

With our young hearts

It’s only now I look back

& remember everything

As if it was yesterday.

2. i never said


i never said sorry

i never said goodbye

i’m sorry i ever broke your heart


it plays on my mind

i never said

even after all these years

sometimes, just sometimes

i wish i never met you

to save you from the pain

& to save myself

from ever hurting you


i broke your heart

(i don’t know why)

i never said goodbye

i never said sorry


goodbye, sorry

3. It was love


I looked into your eyes and immediately fell in love with you

My breath captured for a moment I could not speak a single word

Something changed that day within my mind, body and soul

It was like the world slowed. almost. to. a. steady. stop.

With only you in my eyes and could not look anywhere else


Yet that was only a single moment in time after the immediacy of meeting you

Like pressing unpause the world became full speed ahead once more

My mind had to think and act with quickness;

Otherwise your impression of me would be somewhat strange


I made you laugh, somehow I did, I made you laugh

Words from my mouth made you giggle making a special smile appear across your face

Somehow I was imparting happiness from one person to the next

Again something changed on that day, I felt love, initial love of a human like never before


History was being made as we spoke and learnt about one another

Time with you, grew, confidence higher, conversations evolved

A trust was building between two hearts that were stronger each day

An hour became a day, a day became a week, a week a month,

A year followed, there was never enough time


I felt love, initial love, but my heart had changed once again. I was in love.

My heart sank when you weren’t there, it grew when I was with you

A physical touch of your hand on mine felt like electric through my body


I had to tell you, those three little words, I love you, as I hinted I did

I read you a passage from a book about love and fondness

We led down in each others arms, it was the perfect moment


The day was drawing to a close as you sat on the edge of the bed

I sat on a chair placing my shoe upon my foot, laces in hand

You leapt towards me, “I love you”, “I love you”

Not once did you say it but twice as you held me tight

You felt what I did, you loved me like I loved you

A kiss on the lips before you left, it felt like the hardest goodbye


Late night the light was still very much bright

As my thoughts of you ran around my mind late into the early morning

My eyes finally closed with you in sight, as tomorrow is another day

I fell asleep that night in sight of love and in deep belief of you and I.


4. I walked the hills alone


I walked the hills alone

A time before a camera on a phone

Summer sun to winter winds

I’d walk to, from, over and far


The same view in different light

Was always the greatest of sights

A heart never bored of hills near and distant


A heart accelerates as it pushes up the hill

Only soon to be calm as the view entered the eyes

Sitting on the edge with the world below

There is no other silence like it

Giving time to think, properly think

To where the heart is heading

& how to get the best out of life


I have walked the hills alone

Yet you were always with me

In my mind to encourage

In my heart to love


Time may have passed

With new memories created

Whilst others are lost; temporarily

The hills remain all year round

In every light you can imagine

Providing a backdrop to life


I walked the hills alone

Yet never without you

In my heart.

5. You’re more than a photograph


You’re more than a photograph

A memory you are

A living photograph in the memory

Replayed over and over


A photograph can be shown

A memory cannot

Even if described in the best and heartfelt way


It is only your eyes or the eyes of others who were there

Know what you saw that day, at that moment


You’re more than a photograph

You are a thought, a feeling

A human, a so so beautiful person


It’s more than you see in the photograph

More than a lifetime trying to explain

Some memories are kept for a good reason

As are some photographs

To remember the building of a life

& never to forget the people we love.

6. You: Before anyone


You before anyone else

Or anything else


It is you before me

Always

& never me

before you


You

Before anyone


Always first

Before me

Before anything


No matter what

You are first in my eyes

My heart

& in every action

I do


Never think

You are after

You are before

Always priority

Before anyone else.

7. it remains


i love you

means

i love you


it never changes

8. Bristly thistles


Bristly thistles

Like little missiles

Penetrating clothes to skin


Path after path

Scratch after scratch

Thornes pain fades away


Off route

Thistles deepen

Foot on earth falls

Branches flick

Narrowly missing the eye


Thistles in the thigh

Start to burn

Muscle aches

Bleeding from scratches

Walking through

Thistle patches


Step by step

Pain thrives

Drives the heart

Closer

To where I

Need to be


Never sessile

Like bristly thistles

So no matter how sharpe

Or painful

Your thistle thorns

Will not stop me

Being me.

9. Light of the manipulated belief


The light can be changed

to highlight what isn’t seen

yet even on the summer of days

the darkness can still be there

manipulated into a belief of light

that was never actually there

making what we see, a false sense


The light of the image, captured

& whatever is seen

is to be believed

when placed in front of us


If we change the picture

does it hide or highlight the darkness

that is seen to some and not others


We want the light to prevail

sail as far and wide

as the mind cares to take it


With light comes belief

even if that light is manipulated

only wanting to catapult the dark

(whether it be memories, moments or times)

into a place far from this life we now live and love.