if the depth of my words
were anything like the clouds
you’d understand
every word written
has so much depth
from the core of my heart and soul
to the page that it is written upon
here i stand above the earth
the earth i write so much about
a view is all i need to inspire me
and with you by my side
physically or in spirit
i write as clear as the eye can see
my stance is ready to defend
anything that i have ever written
because my words are my heart and soul
and if you want to fight my words
you therefore fight my heart and soul
and my stance should tell you
i am ready to defend anything i am
my head may spend a lot of time in the clouds
yet i know where my feet are firmly grounded
the words that i write bring me back to earth
so you know and i that i will be here for you
the depth of what i know and what i feel
takes time between written ways
to find its place in where i stand and believe
just let me walk to find out where i am
and certainly where i belong from here
my head in the clouds
with my feet firmly grounded
a walk outside
can help sort out everything inside
you were the best revision session i ever had
i studied you more than any book i ever read
the chemistry between us was powerful
yet physically it was the softest feeling it could be
our hearts beat the same rhythm
better than any biology lesson could teach you
mathematically i thought you and i would never be here
the odds were against us but here we were
in this way with each other with my hand upon your chest
you were everything i had ever worked my life for
you were the best revision session i ever had
leading to the best results of my life
more fields than you care you imagine
crossing fences with no need for keys
no moats to cross but sunshine to chase
green are the lanes and the way to go
ten more steps to take until the top
a view seen for twenty or more miles around
rolling cheese to running into my arms
i will never be foiled by the weather to be here
even when snow has fallen the number ten will get me here
with the relentless wind or rain in the air i will get to you
every pain is worth the walk or cycle to get hillside
everything is worth putting to one side to be so near
streams trickle down over horse filled fields
with stables hillside to shelter and hide
all these thoughts from a hill close to the heart
but never fear as over the hill i go to find a new path
the path can wait for i now go back to the crossroads
to find the number ten to get me back home
as you leapt
off the bed
you said
‘i love you’
holding
my face
kissing me
powerfully
i never realised
until then
how you
truly felt
only then
once again
to say
‘i love you’
as you looked
into my eyes
i felt like
our hearts
became one
as without you
i am nothing
as you leapt
i leapt as well
into love
with you
heart racing
i had
no hesitance
in my words
of my love
for you
as my eyes
fell into your
all i could say is
‘i love you’
from my heart
my body
and my soul
i don’t know when i will be able to close the book on you
keeping it open is the only way i think i will remember you
knowing my mind will one day fade away into the unknown
i have to keep the thought of you alive for as long as i can
my mind feels like it is fading already from my body
as the simplest of memories are escaping my grasps
some memories i just need to hold onto a little bit more
despite how long ago they were they made who i am today
for the memories i fear i will lose my sight of
i wish i had taken more photographs and kept them safe
long gone has the opportunity to stand by you to share a smile
but the memories remember for now what the camera did not take
as long as the book is in sight and in reach
i can open it to a page to remember a time and a place to remember forever
the one
the only one
the one
that captured my heart
the one
i would do anything for
she’s the one
the only one
how the one
gave me life
to live and breathe
the only one
to ever let me be
the one to marry
endeavour life together
never another one
you
the only one
the one
the one that i love
i love to see you laugh
it’s even better
when i’ve made you laugh
for me it is the joy it brings
it feels like you know
how much you mean to me
seeing you laugh and smile
i feel like i am doing something right
a moment captured
to make those dull days
a lot lot brighter
i love to see you laugh
every worry in the world
disappears in an instant
i close my eyes
to see you smile
laugh at the world
and alongside it
i love to see you laugh
i love to see you laugh
i love to see you laugh
i keep softly saying to myself
to help calm down my heart
the giggle and the laugh
fulfill my heart
in what i enjoy most
to make you laugh
from the laugh
the smile gleams across your face
i love to see you laugh
it brings the world
the joy and happiness
we all need to smile
i tried to weave myself next to you
thinking we were from the same cloth
but i always ended up
being the loose thread
untidy and ultimately lost
i only ever weaved myself in
with everything that i had
as i thought you and i
would be strong enough together
to hold one another
whenever we needed each other
a lost thread cut short
i never fitted in
when i thought i would
while others weaved
they sewed themselves in
better than i could have
a lost thread i may be
but one day you'll need me
to fix a hole
or a broken soul
wanting to be
a part of the weave
cannot always be the way
however never cut off a loose thread
as you'll never know
when you'll need me
late into the evening
after the snow had fallen all day
i decided to walk to the hill
and look out at the night view
the hot drink i carried all day
was now barely hot at all
however i just needed something
while i rest from the day that had been
for so long i have remembered
the moment i walked here
after seeing you all day
the wind whistled
and the snow covered view
lit with street lights
and the fading sun
finally faded
i was at complete ease with myself
my aim of the day was to walk to the hill
and so i did after seeing you
my heart didn’t stop racing all day long
from the excitement of seeing you
to clambering up the hillside in the snow
as the whistling wind eased
the snow view lit by street light
i savoured with delight
late into the evening
i achieved everything i set out to do
so i headed for home
knowing i could dream freely
of the next time i will be with you
for the love
of my daughter
the wife
family
and friends
live life
together
as one
as time
is precious
for the love
of the land
let us walk
together
do not dwell upon
if you should walk
with others
other than close ones
because we walk
the same earth
let us talk
to one another
even if
we were
once
enemies
lovers
or others
from The Peak
i stand
where i have never
walked before
looking to Coopers
my hill my muse
from here
i can walk
to Robinswood
through undulating woods
via Upton
May hill
is far away
as i see it
standing here
a brisk walk
it would be
but that is
for another day
for now
i head home
via Churchdown hill
looking back
from where
i have come from
to be here
over hills
and along many trails
i find myself
remembering tails
of woods walked
and vast views seen
i walk to inspire
and write what is seen
from hills nearby
or over land far away
no poet stands alone
there must be something
or someone nearby
to inspire them to write
even when i look out from the hills
i know that i am not alone
as once you walked here
if not you are walking with me
no poet stands and writes
about nothing and everything
without having some kind of influence
standing alone is not a poets way to be
as if the poet was alone
how could they write what they feel
no poet stands alone
as the world is the influence
is some way or another
may it be land, sea, person or mind
you never stand alone
i was
born
fell in love
then torn
now living
by walking
living parallel
in the same universe
as some
however forwards
i still go
i will always go
born
without you
torn
for knowing you
walk on
live on
in hope
go forwards
still always go
forwards
as time
cannot go
backwards
from the peak
i seek to find you
from coopers
i’d stoop down
to be nearer to you
from robinswood
i’d fly with the robins
with the view in front of me
to be next to you
from churchdown
i’ll never frown
when i’m sat down
next to the church
looking around for you
i seek to find you
from the peak to the church
somewhere
you are there
you got me home
the thought of you
got me home
i would never had made it
if it wasn’t for you
the thought of
that kept me going
until I was in your arms
walking far
i walked knowing
you would be there for me
i just needed to get there
you got me home
for i knew
i wouldn’t have got there
if i hadn’t thought that day
of you
you got me home
back into your arms
all from a thought
never think
that i
have never
anything but
an abundance
of love
for you
for i
live life
for you
with you
next to
all because
i have
an abundance
of love
to give
to you
each day
love grows
beyond strength
known to
man kind
the abundance
there is
creates strength
between us
an abundance
there is
however we
remind ourselves
what’s built
needs time
breathing space
to live
as one
to keep
the abundance
of love
living alive
forever more
the kiss goodbye
after an evening
where the world was alive
and the hearts were young
i was a gent and politely asked
if i could kiss you goodbye
people looked on
but i for one did not care
nothing felt more right
than this moment
in the evening sunlight
at the end of a perfect evening
all i wished for
was the perfect kiss
and on that day and moment
the kiss goodbye
was just perfect to match the evening
as we walked away from each other
i already started to miss you
everything felt perfect
it was perfection
that evening
the sun never set
still has never set
as that moment has always
will always
be my perfect evening light
fuck revision
i was on a mission
quick decision
never forgiven
my ambition
driven by you
you became
my religion
permission
to kiss you
never given
once my position
was in diminution
my decision
to fuck revision
never hampered
my ambition
you’d gamble on a horse
but you wouldn’t gamble on me
even if you knew
i’d be a winner
for you
matter does it not
that i ramble on and on
how the feelings i have
as they are just uncontrollable
some day
a gamble on my rambles
would pay
either to stop
the ramblings
or the gamble
i am willing to take
but only
if you are
gamble on a horse
for it only to run away
where as i will stand strong
for you
and always be there
next to you
when you need me most
next time you gamble
think of my ramble
and the words i say
as they may be
worth the gamble
i felt like running
but i savoured my time
to get to you
this was a journey to explore
my heart and my mind
not just a journey
to get to you
with many unanswered questions
each step i took
i thought carefully about
as you and i
had come a long way
and this was not the time
for any misplaced steps
i felt like running
but i thought my way to you
knowing you’d been hurt
i wasn’t rushing to cause more pain
i knew what my heart and mind felt
it was just time required
to find out how best to get to you
you were my mistake
you knew what was at stake
i couldn’t let go of you
no matter how much I tried
you were my pleasant thorn
in my side
keeping me on my toes
yet painful to get rid of
everything was at stake
when I stood by you
however I stood by you
as I honestly thought
you were the risk I needed
you knew what was a stake
when you took my hand
and we walked together
the thorn pressed into my side
keeping my eyes wide to look out for you
but i could never let go of you
my mind changed
it felt different
after I shared my thoughts
with you
my mind changed
after I spoke of my likeness
for you
sombre was the mind
yet sober was is not
however
it spoke words of truth
deep from within
a shared thought
that changed the mind
but in what way
i can't work out
when I feel the same
as I did before
yet something has changed
no more words spoken
it feels swept under the carpet
like worthless words
that should it seem
never have been let out
the mind changed
feeling like it cannot be repaired
as words spoken
cannot be taken back
the mind changed
it doesn’t speak
unless it needs to now
the mind changed
and it felt like the world did to
however i know
everything is the same
so why do i feel so different?
i started to write
all because one day
i read a poem in the classroom
and thought this feels good
from then I wrote another poem
and another
and another
then came many more
the poetry I write
may not make sense to you
even may come across as rubbish
however what I write
is from me to you
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