looking fine
let's dine
to see if we bind
give some time
to find
if we could combine
i think we could be sublime
never mind
if anyone else thinks you're devine
i’d like you to be mine
you play on my mind
and in time
even at 3 after midnight
i tell you what's behind
my lost blue eyes
(and it is for your mind
to decide if we should delve
into each others lives
as my mind is made up
and i wait for you)
hey bear
i found a tear
i needed to repair
i didn't hold on too tight
but i tried to fight
for what i felt
was right
each night
my bear was there
unknown to me
the tear was forming
hey bear
let me lie next to you
fix you ready for tomorrow
as the tear
need not be there
hey bear
now you have been repaired
i hold you closer than ever
but never too tight
as i will always fight for you
as you are my bear
you are what’s right my bear
hey bear
i like you
love you
always in need of you
you saw more
than ever before
as the poison
seeped further
into the heart and the mind
as I lost consciousness
of the real world
my world became real
very real to me
i felt alive
like i've never been brain dead
gaining more in confidence
than losing my mind
once again
you saw more
i felt more
but the poison
stopped me
from being me
the real me
as you
know me
far too well
you saw more
than you never should
as what i am inside
should stay just there
and i am alive
even if the poison tells me otherwise
Have a think
then a drink
and think some more
another drink
and you hit
the unknown
the unknown
untold world
where memories
are somewhere
but never really there
drink to remember
think more to work out why
drink one more
and then there’s nothing more
have a think
drink one more
when one more
is never enough
and enough has been drunk
You are the words
within my heart
as my heart
does not speak
other than words
of the love I have
held within
forever breathing
to keep me alive
You are the words
that keep me breathing
and whenever I am short of breath
I think of you and your words
which fill my body with hope
and the air I need
Tie me down to the shore
So I don't float away
When the tide is high
let the water rise high
letting my body
feel the cold flow of water
as I gasp for air
the tide recedes
my feet touch the shore once more
still tethered
I know I cannot float away
when the tide is high
remaining strong from now on
and I will be wiser
when the tide comes in again
I will not float away
when the tide gets to me
as I need to be next to you
forever with you
I’m hot, cold
up, down
happy, sad
never, forever
in doubt
I’m introverted
extroverted
confidence grown
and lost in time
I’m all out of energy
and I can’t give no more
High, low
sometimes I never know
exo, endo
the balance
easy tipped
positive, negative
my mind is a switch
and some days
I just don’t have control
We use to sit down
watch the world go by
as it went round and round
Then one day
I wrote you a song
but I got it all wrong
as the tune you played
didn’t match my words
Watching the world as we did
I sit wanting to know
if the world is right
or am I just out of sight
I just want you to call
even though numbers change
to once again
light up my phone
like you lit up my life
Oh I wish
I wish I could take
all of the pain away
I still love your eyes
and the way that you smile
My heart has never beat so fast
since I left you that day
Oh I wish
I just wish you knew
how much I think of you
and how I want to take the pain away
Oh I wish
I just wish
By 10pm
I already know
that you are in my heart
1am and I still stand by you
saying little but always listening
2am and time to go
my words impeded
but mean all the same
The clock goes on
but my heart never stops
quiet I may be by morning
yet there is never silence
when the day goes by
and my mind is awake
to think about you
By 10am I wish it was 10pm again
Waiting for 2am
When my impeded words
into the open night air
but as the clock goes on
nights become days
and days become weeks
You’re weak
you’re poor
you’re never off the floor
Stand up
Stand strong
Stand above
Stand and be proud
My words lost,
Unfound
Lost
in a memory
from long ago
when no one else
remembers
Lost
because the path
split into two
and I walked elsewhere
Lost
because I found you
all too late
when fate ran out
leaving you and I
to stare across the room
Lost
because no one else
remembers
what I do and why
so with every memory
is another moment for someone to forget
when all I do
is to remember
every detail
every single detail
You see my eyes
but you don’t see
what is behind the eyes
You don’t see
what they feel
for you
My eyes tell you
everything that I know
and all you need to know
Yet you don’t see it
and in turn
never feel what I do
You see my eyes
and there is a world behind them
a world of great belief
that one day
I will show you
As the night goes on
you lay perpendicular to me
with you head upon my lap
You look up to me
as you speak your mind
and I look down
to listen and admire you
Sweeping your hair to one side
I have never felt so comfortable
this is you and I
how I always imagine it would be
The night goes on
but time for me has stood still
as this moment is a moment
that I don’t want to end
All of the words within my heart
make their way out to you
as I look down and admire you
and every word you understand
I always imagined it would be like this
and so it is
that my heart is in love with you
To sort
my thoughts
only taught
me to sought
what I feel
and fought
long and hard
to show you
my thoughts
the dark side of light
where i thought i might
find all of my fight
we often look for the light in life
where we are all drawn to
from the dark to the light
some journeys in life
are darker than others
yet at some point
we all have to get through
no matter what we have to do
the dark side of light
is just the periphery
and once we are through
we are into the light
and shine we will
the dark side might give us a fright
but never will we turn away from the light
as it is what makes us who we are
we are the light on the other side of darkness
i have always been different
peculiar to the eye and the mind
my views ignored like my words
but when i say my heart
has something for you
take it now while it beats
as when it stops
it will be no use at all
i have always felt different
knowing what i say
will never be loud enough
or soon enough
despite my words
coming directly from my heart
being different leads to places
where i don’t always belong
and i long to be
on the same level as you
i tried to leave (the public house)
but i failed to do so
all in hope
you and i
would hide away
for the night together
returning the next day
with a better understanding
of mind, body and soul
i tried to leave
but your smile kept me close
yet not close enough
as your heart is strong
i tried to leave
but my heart kept me back
wanting to beat close to yours
as it may be the closet
it will ever get
i tried to leave
but i just couldn't
without telling you
trying to sell you
my heart's story
of why it's you
that stopped me from leaving
tell me straight
when i ask
if you like me
as when i ask
my heart
has been numbed
ready for the answer
that i dread
and the only answer
that there can be
should be
but somehow i hope
you like me back
when you tell me straight
no heart is deep enough
that i cannot reach
to show you what you mean
instead of staying
safe upon the surface
from the depth of your eyes
i know you feel for so many things
but your heart is just as deep
yet not deep enough for me
to not find how you feel
everyone can see the surface
a place to hide what’s beneath
and what runs through your veins
of love, likeness and hate
runs deep into the body
and only words and actions
can show what you feel
as no one can know
unless what’s deep inside
is let out into the world
as i washed my clothes in the flowing river
my thoughts of the previous evening
washed away down the river and far away
as i knelt down the river was cool and calm
just what was needed as my thoughts were fatigued
the river swept gently by and i wandered
from the river bank to the water
time and time again rattling my mind
if i could have been more confident that night
i could have been with you instead of here
as my thoughts washed down the river
my head became clear and focused
the silence of the river bank helped me to think
then as the rain came down my thoughts came back
every feeling i had ever felt ran through my body
the thoughts i thought that had washed away
were still within me as they have always been
from the river bank i could have drifted away
but i took my time and the river replenished
what i thought i had lost
here at the river bank i knew my time here was done
and my thoughts now must get me back home
to where and who i belong with
you are my light
but i have to go
to the dark side
to get to you
as you and i live
in the light and shadows
with life is not always as bright
as i would like
so we battle through the dark
until we reach the light
where our hearts are happier
with a stronger understanding
you are my light
through every darkness
and every moment i have
i live towards the light
that holds all of my hope
Tell me a fable
Where I'm able
To put all my feelings upon the table
A fable that lasts a lifetime
Is a fable worth writing
As every feeling is a word
From the heart to you
A fable untold
forever plays upon the mind and heart
as it should have been
but now a fable lost
tossed away into the past
A fable able to change the world
maybe not your world this time
but someone else's world
to finish a fable
placing everything on the table
so no feelings are left out.
You are my angel
guiding me away from the dark
into the light that is life
You sit upon my shoulder
whispering your words
to show me which way to go
Without you I’d be lost
within the dark
and never finding a way out
No matter what
you are my angel
even if you don’t even know
how much you mean
to me and for me
as you are the light of my life
i like you
i like you
i like you
i like you
i like you
i like you
i like you
i like you
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