The Hill Above
Contents
- The bike she use to ride
- Progressing Era
- Remember this
- I Never Knew
- Sunshine
- In Our Eyes
- Walking Back
- How did I not notice
- The Hill
- Where are you now, Where are you now?
- Holding back
- Twitch / Depression
- About the other day…
- Sit back (and enjoy the ride)
- Today
- After All
- You, I & Everyone
- Who makes the world turn
- Untitled / Random
- A Love Poem
- Living in Memories
- The Usual Day
- Physical Love
- Drawn to you
- The Party Begins
- Natural
- Belong
- Get Back Up
1. THE BIKE SHE USE TO RIDE
As he stared at the bike she use ride
It stood against the wall
Very still unlike it use to be
It hadn’t been touched for years
Not since the passing of the life that once road it
Along the country lanes she use to ride
I saw her daily as I walked the path
The path to the view
The view with many memories
We use to enjoy that view
Our first kiss was there
After courting for many weeks
I saw something in her
I had never seen before
We cycled in the lanes
Wind in the hair
Without a thought for anyone else
One day I’ll restore that bike
To the beauty once like it’s owner
Yet it would bring back many memories
Of all being good times had
With the bike against the wall
I still imagine her collecting it to ride
Swift like a summer’s breeze
She’d be away and riding
One day it’ll be ridden again
When I have the courage to remember the memories
Why the need for courage you may ask?
If all the memories were good
Then remember now and forever more
The truth is I want to remember the memories
But it just makes me fill with sadness
That I miss her so much each day
No matter how much I remember
She won’t be back to collect her bike
I will restore her bike one day
I’ll ride it to the views
Through the lanes
Like we used to do
Remember her like she was still here
Her bike is resting
Just like she is now
I have no doubt she’s riding in heaven
Willing me on to ride that bike again
To feel the wind in the hair
I will do so one day
And when the time comes
We’ll ride together again
In heaven above.
2. PROGRESSING ERA
As the era progresses
I want to run further back
The way the era is going
I do not see where I am going
Looking back I saw the path
The path I was meant to follow
I was with you and we lived
The era is at the point of unknown
From here where does it go?
The mighty hills look good to hide
But one day I’d have to come back
The era progresses
And the longer it is without you
Life becomes driftwood
Floating away never knowing
I will run back to the beginning
Beginning of the era
The era that defined everything
And do many things differently
Starting by running
With you from the hills
Into life as we see it fit.
3. REMEMBER THIS
When I realised it was over
I never wanted to go outside
It seemed such a big place
And I knew you were out there somewhere
As I looked from the window
All I could see was a passing car
The odd walker on their way
I sat and waited by the telephone
Expecting you to call at any moment
As it turns out that I was waiting for nothing
Nothing came
No one telephoned
I knew you were out there somewhere
And I couldn’t do anything about it
Even today I head out of the door
Knowing that one day I will see you again
Albeit the chances are few and far between
But you are there, you are living life
I still look out of the window
See the world go by
And I wonder if…
But then I remember this:
Life goes on
We make today our history
Tomorrow never comes
We forever live in the present.
4. I NEVER KNEW
I never knew what it was
That funny feeling I felt
It came and went
Just like the day and the night
But I never knew what it was
When it appeared it felt so nice
At times I didn’t know how to be
I did not know where it came from
Or what it was that made me feel like this
Something so strong could not be unreal
Then one day it all came to
I looked up and you sat next to me
I was feeling this funny sensation
It became stronger when I looked at you
Yet the feeling did not fade when I thought of you
How did it take so long for me to know
That you were the one that made me feel like this
I had to stand back and think to what this means
Such strange feelings for so long
And at times I did not know what it meant
Do they mean the same then as they do now?
So many questions without answers
The heart starts to beat uncontrollably
Once calm and I think a little more
More controlled and more deeply
Looking around
There is nothing else that makes me feel this way
I decide to wait and see what happens
Why act so quickly
When there is more to find out from within
Time goes on and it is the same time and time again
Every time I see you it’s the same feelings
At times I just do not speak
I am silenced by what I am feeling
It is you these feelings are for
I never knew how strong they were
Now I am stunned
Staring at you in awe
Never would I thought I would feel like this
About you
About how much I love you.
5. SUNSHINE
The morning rises
A chill surrounds the air we’re in
Rumours of a warm sunny day are all around
As the morning goes on
The sun slowly but surely breaks the clouds
Breaking them apart to reveal the sun’s rays
The earth starts to warm
The temperature rises
The chill soon departs to give a glorious day
We bask in the sunshine
Providing us with energy for the day ahead
And a new lease of happiness
We bask in the sun, spreading joy
The clouds have retreated
It’s time to be free
It’s amazing what bit of sunshine can do
From dull to happy
That’s Sunshine!
6. IN OUR EYES
In our eyes the world is reflected
The world is viewed in every eye
Only taking in what you want to see
And sometimes seeing what you never want to see
You can look away
Close your eyes
But the world will still be there
In our eyes the world is how we see it
What we see we can act upon
To make the world a better place
After all, it is our world
And our eyes have to see the world.
7. WALKING BACK
Walking back to the place that made you happy
Each step you take
You get a little younger
A little less wiser (but that came with age)
How far you walk is up to you
How far back do you have to go
To find a place when you were happy
Nevertheless each step you get a little younger
Walking back you live in memory lane
Going through ups and downs
Remembering things you thought were gone
By the end of the walk
It’s worth going through everything again
To get back to that place of happiness.
8. HOW DID I NOT NOTICE
How did I not notice
The love that was there
It was for you
I looked for so long
For where it was meant to be
How did I not notice
It seemed lost in the wide world
With so many people
Many thoughts flew around
Not noticing something so obvious
Is a worry
Yet a relief if not surprising
I may have gone through life
Without ever noticing at all
But here I am
At a place where I have noticed
Ready to live upon what I realise
How did I not notice
I do not know
For after so long without notice
I have now.
9. THE HILL
No matter what angle I see you from
It’s still a beautiful view
From afar, from a distance
I long to walk to you
Climb to the top of your world
No matter how many times I’ve seen you
You always appear magical to me
A beautiful hill
With views to match
My only regret
Is that I never walk with you
As much as I should
Always there
The hill that inspires a mind
You’ll always be there
Waiting to be walked
The highs and lows
Just like walking with you
The highs and lows
Like life itself
I’ll never get bored of looking out for you
You’re beautiful just like the memories.
10. WHERE ARE YOU NOW, WHERE ARE YOU NOW?
Where are you now
Where are you now?
Are you happy in the world you live
Does it take time to think of me
Do even ever think of me
Or is life that far gone
I’m just a mere speck in the line of life
Why did I let you go
To be free
I keep saying to myself
To be free
That is why I let you go
Where are you now
Where are you now?
I can only imagine your world
Is a beautiful place to be
Never a thought of me
Never time to reminisce
So where are you now
Where could I have been
If I had never let go
It’s time to go
Too much time to think
You’re free
You’re free
That’s why I let you go
Like a bird you flew away
Where are you now,
Where are you now?
I don’t think I’ll ever know
You’ll never know
I still think of you
With a smile
And hope life is well.
11. HOLDING BACK
I want to go
Let me go
I need to go
Don’t hold me back
Take your hands off
I have to go
Stop holding me
I cannot miss this
You’re grip is too tight
I beg you to let go
I cannot reach if you keep hold
I need to go
This is not where I want to be
I want to let go
Just let go!
12. TWITCH / DEPRESSION
Like a twitch it never goes away
Always there
Always close to you
No matter what you do
Say
Think
It is there
It’s hard to live with
But somehow it is lived with
Like the twitch
It is a reminder
That life is not perfect
Happiness could surround you
The mindset of one is all but wrong
All but here
But never there
Life goes on
With nothing or no none to care.
13. ABOUT THE OTHER DAY…
The eyes open at the break of dawn
With a rub of eyes I realise the day is here
I look around and I now know the time is right
Up I get for the day ahead
After starting the day I put on my walking shoes
I pause for thought in what I am to do, to say
My head and my conscience are clear
Just like the plan for the day
For the day ahead I need something to help the mind
The trusty iPod will get me through
With a tune to fit any occasion, feeling or moment
I walk out the door and the day is bright
The walk is on and I see the route in my mind
Across the land I shall walk
Yet the surroundings could be more interesting
Passing through areas of concrete
Before reaching the green pastures of joy
However the aim of this walk is not to see
But to say what I have meant to say for ages
As I walk along the summer sun is in full blaze
The rays give me the energy, if not a little sunburn
The music plays in my ears, encouraging me on
Blocking out the day to day noise of the traffic
I check the time and I make good progress
Here today time means nothing
But I better make sure I leave time for progress
Mid way through the walk I pause for breath
A sip of the drink and the change of a song
A cloud has covered the sun, Only briefly
But a welcomed cloud to rest the sunned skin
I walk on, push on, to get to where I am headed
As I reach the outer city
The world becomes greener, a happier place
From here I leave the roads
Entering onto a rough road and a track or two
Here is when I realise what I am about to do
Why I have come all this way
The sun appears stronger than ever
I walk along the path, I hear a gentle rustle of the trees
With the trees to provide cover from the sun
A cool breeze flows along the country path
Cooling me down after such a mammoth walk
Just another short distance to walk
Past the cottage and through the field
Avoids walking round to the track
Albeit on a wet day the track is preferred
I walk up to the stables from the field
Climbing the gate I see no sign of life
Apart from the animals running around
I catch my breath
Then I hear noise from around the corner
My heart starts to beat faster
No time for a still heart today it would seem
One day I’m sure that will catch up with me
As I appear from the corner
I see who I have travelled all this way for
With her back to me she carries on
I smile and take a deep breath for the final time
I call her name and I startle her a little
Soon she turns and smiles
She seems pleased to see me
I forgot to mention
It’s been a little while since we met up
The other day
From a moment we were friends
It all turned peculiar when we had a moment
A moment I realised I had to do this
“Hi!” I said, “Sorry to make you jump”
“That’s ok, just wasn’t expecting to see you”, said with a broad smile
We caught up a little more
Nattering on about this that and everything
So natural we spoke
So pleasant it is to hear her voice
For hours I could speak to her
And not regret for any moment the time spent listening to her
I was about to take the plunge and speak of what I needed to say
I could see in her eye that she wanted to talk
She knew why I was here, but not what I was about to mention
Now I hoped she would want to hear of what I have to say
But how do you start such an important topic
Well, here goes
“About the other day….” I said,
Her eyes lit up before shyly looking at the floor and said, “I thought you might be here about that”
“I’m actually here as I want to see you more than anything, speak to you”, I said nervously
“Sorry if I made you feel awkward, I wasn’t sure what to do”, as she twiddled her thumbs
She refers to the moment we stared and looked at one another the other day
Our eyes glaring at each other, head and noses touching, one step away from a kiss
“It wasn’t awkward at all, almost perfect! Shame we were interrupted”
At this moment I was in complete awe of her, her eyes gleamed!
A moments silence followed, but a short moment at that
She said, “I never thought you liked me in that way!?, we’ve known each other for such a long time”
At this moment I moved closer, smiling and with so much to say I had to calm myself
“I’ve always liked you! From being a friend and as we’ve grown so has the feelings I have for you” – I feel relieved at this point
But I carry on; “I don’t know what you feel but that moment the other day was the best thing to ever happen”
She smiled and moved closer to me
We held hands standing in front of each other
“I like you too, how could I not!” Standing there with almost a tear in her eye
“I just thought someone like you would never like someone like me”
We embraced in a soft gentle hug
She was warm, just like I had imagined
I felt secure in her arms, this felt so right
I said, “I never thought someone like you could like me, you’re beautiful”
At that moment we our noses were touching again
This time the perfect moment happened
We kissed, we held each other
Soft, beautiful, nothing else mattered
From here we knew what we both felt
My walk was worth every step
Every moment from the waking day
I knew this was meant to be
The walk was worth everything
Even if it wasn’t to have the happy ending
She would have known how I feel
The walk home seemed a bit too much after today
A long beautiful day
Not one more step I could take for now
So I caught the bus instead.
14. SIT BACK (AND ENJOY THE RIDE)
Sit back and enjoy the ride
Cos you’re not getting off
No matter how hard you try
Whichever way life takes you
That’s the way that you go
You gotta fight for your right to live
Up and down just like the ride
Life isn’t as straightforward as you think
Sit back and enjoy the ride
Get a good book to read
Cos it’s gonna be a long journey
And when it’s your time to get off
Leave the book behind
The next person will need something to read
It’s the ride of your life
But whichever way it takes you
You need something
Or someone
To get you through.
15. TODAY
Today I woke up with hope in my heart
I dreamt of you and the joy you brought
My eyes gleamed from the moment they opened
Today I woke up with love in my heart
A bright day ahead with no sigh in sight
No clouds in the sky to cover the beauty of the day
Today I woke up in a mass of excitement
Thinking of you after dreaming the night away
You’ve taken my breath away with all the excitement
Today I woke up and I will see you again
My dreams are answered once again
My thoughts are inspired and replenished
Today I woke up with the world at my feet
From which I intend to walk until my final day
With you as my inspiration, guide and hope.
16. AFTER ALL
After all I am who I am
I am who you see
After all
I cannot change the way I think
I can be influenced
But what I truly feel is known deep down
After all the life lived so far
I gain the knowledge of life
Without knowing everything there is to be known
After all for people who look at me
Make up their own mind of what they see
I am who you see
What you hear from me
Will change your view maybe
After all
I am here and I think and feel what I do
Why live life constrained to what others want
What they feel
It may not always be right
After all
My life is here to be lived
As much as possible
And after all I want you to live yours.
17. YOU, I & EVERYONE
You fall in love with the person
And not just their looks
You connect with them
Rather than just hosting them
You believe in them
Not just believe in yourself
You reach out for them
In every moment of their need
I fell in love with you
And not just your looks
I connected with you
Rather than being a host
I believe in you
Forever more than I believe in myself
I reach out for you
In times of need, or just every day
Everyone falls in love with someone
And not just someone’s looks
Everyone has someone to connect with
Rather than being a host to someone
Everyone believes
Because there is more to believing in just themselves
Everyone reaches out
To help and support.
18. WHO MAKES THE WORLD TURN
Who makes the world turn
Is it you?
Or is it me?
How about we turn the world together
Make the world a different place
Turn it holding hands
So we know how fast we go
Through the light of the day
And the dark of the night
We’ll stand next to each other
And make the world turn
Who makes the world turn
We do!
19. UNTITLED / RANDOM
You see the dream
You see me
You see
You
You see
You see me
You see me to
You see me to believe
You don’t see the dream
You don’t see me
You don’t see
You don’t
You
You don’t
You don’t see
You don’t see me
You don’t see me to
You don’t see me to believe.
20. A LOVE POEM
It could be short
Or could be sweet
The poem could talk about you
Or even refer to you
In all honesty
It’s irrelevant in what it says
Between the start and the end
As long as it says
I love you
What else could you need to know?
Many things you might say
Why you? Well…
Your personality is heartwarming
The smile upon your face is what makes me smile
The connection we have
Because you are beautiful
I love you.
21. LIVING IN MEMORIES
I live in memories
Jumping from one to the next
Hopping from one year to another
Surrounded by them
They are here, Everywhere!
Never blocking current memories
Just reminding how life has been
And how to create a better future for all
Some memories stand out more than others
But yet the other memories are still there
Waiting in the wings ready to be thought of
We all live in memories
Every day we create our own
And we dream too of ones to create.
22. THE USUAL DAY
The usual day starts with the night before
A final thought of you before I close my eyes
The first thought in the morning is of you
The smile it brings to my face when I think of you
Nothing gets me ready for the day
More than a thought about you
As I get ready for the day
I think of you as if I were to see you
I’d like you to see me in my smartest state
However I am not always in such a way
Some days the busy tolls of life take their way
Like the usual day does
I drive along I wonder what the day will bring
The mind has plenty to concentrate on, work on
Just for a split second
I wonder what you’ll be doing while I am so far away
While I am here thinking of you, albeit brief
Sitting at my desk I write an email
Wishing I was sending one to you
The usual daily process but yet thinking of you
At the end of the day after all the work is done
It’s time to go
Time to be on the move once again
From here to there
Always something that sparks a thought
From the morning till noon
Forward to the afternoon and evening
I sit in the evening after a busy day
And ponder whether to talk to you
Sometimes it feels right
Other times it is jus time to rest and think
The usual day ends once again
The usual manic ways of life continue
But it’s ending never changes
Ending how it started
Thinking of you.
23. PHYSICAL LOVE
Can you ever love someone so much
Even without kissing them?
Making love to them?
(Of course there is unconditional love
Such as for family, This goes without saying
And albeit a different topic,)
The love we all look for
The one the books, poems & films are based on
What our hearts strive for
Can it be so that we never love physically
But every emotion we have is the love for one?
Love forever makes the heart fonder for someone
Can it be so without ever being physical?
Such a question ponders many answers
Many views in which I don’t think there is one answer
Does love have to be physical?
True love I mean
Can you love without holding hands, kissing, making love?
Of course you can care for someone beyond this world!
There is nothing that can be in your way to show you care
Either way, Love is there.
24. DRAWN TO YOU
Drawn to you
Like a moth to a flame
Just without getting hurt
I’m drawn to you
By the positive light you shine
Moving ever closer.
25. THE PARTY BEGINS
The party begins
And in only have one thought on the mind
I wanna dance with you
The music plays
The people chatter loudly above the music
Conversation is good all around
Each good song I hear
Inspires me on to ask you to dance
The only thing holding me back
Is my rigid, dance-less figure
Perhaps a drink or two will loosen the joints
Get the dancing muscles moving
The party goes on
The music plays and the good vibes felt
We never danced together
However everyone had a dance
Even my funky dance moves made an appearance
The party begins
And continues
Maybe next time I’ll dance with you.
26. NATURAL
Love is natural
And so are you.
27. BELONG
You belong with me tonight
Every night and Every day.
28. GET BACK UP
I’ve fallen for you
Fallen a long way
I just don’t think
I’ll get back up.