The Hill Above


  1. The bike she use to ride
  2. Progressing Era
  3. Remember this
  4. I Never Knew
  5. Sunshine
  6. In Our Eyes
  7. Walking Back
  8. How did I not notice
  9. The Hill
  10. Where are you now, Where are you now?
  11. Holding back
  12. Twitch / Depression
  13. About the other day…
  14. Sit back (and enjoy the ride)
  15. Today
  16. After All
  17. You, I & Everyone
  18. Who makes the world turn
  19. Untitled / Random
  20. A Love Poem
  21. Living in Memories
  22. The Usual Day
  23. Physical Love
  24. Drawn to you
  25. The Party Begins
  26. Natural
  27. Belong
  28. Get Back Up


As he stared at the bike she use ride

It stood against the wall

Very still unlike it use to be

It hadn’t been touched for years

Not since the passing of the life that once road it

Along the country lanes she use to ride

I saw her daily as I walked the path

The path to the view

The view with many memories

We use to enjoy that view

Our first kiss was there

After courting for many weeks

I saw something in her

I had never seen before

We cycled in the lanes

Wind in the hair

Without a thought for anyone else

One day I’ll restore that bike

To the beauty once like it’s owner

Yet it would bring back many memories

Of all being good times had

With the bike against the wall

I still imagine her collecting it to ride

Swift like a summer’s breeze

She’d be away and riding

One day it’ll be ridden again

When I have the courage to remember the memories

Why the need for courage you may ask?

If all the memories were good

Then remember now and forever more

The truth is I want to remember the memories

But it just makes me fill with sadness

That I miss her so much each day

No matter how much I remember

She won’t be back to collect her bike

I will restore her bike one day

I’ll ride it to the views

Through the lanes

Like we used to do

Remember her like she was still here

Her bike is resting

Just like she is now

I have no doubt she’s riding in heaven

Willing me on to ride that bike again

To feel the wind in the hair

I will do so one day

And when the time comes

We’ll ride together again

In heaven above.


As the era progresses

I want to run further back

The way the era is going

I do not see where I am going

Looking back I saw the path

The path I was meant to follow

I was with you and we lived

The era is at the point of unknown

From here where does it go?

The mighty hills look good to hide

But one day I’d have to come back

The era progresses

And the longer it is without you

Life becomes driftwood

Floating away never knowing

I will run back to the beginning

Beginning of the era

The era that defined everything

And do many things differently

Starting by running

With you from the hills

Into life as we see it fit.


When I realised it was over

I never wanted to go outside

It seemed such a big place

And I knew you were out there somewhere

As I looked from the window

All I could see was a passing car

The odd walker on their way

I sat and waited by the telephone

Expecting you to call at any moment

As it turns out that I was waiting for nothing

Nothing came

No one telephoned

I knew you were out there somewhere

And I couldn’t do anything about it

Even today I head out of the door

Knowing that one day I will see you again

Albeit the chances are few and far between

But you are there, you are living life

I still look out of the window

See the world go by

And I wonder if…

But then I remember this:

Life goes on

We make today our history

Tomorrow never comes

We forever live in the present.


I never knew what it was

That funny feeling I felt

It came and went

Just like the day and the night

But I never knew what it was

When it appeared it felt so nice

At times I didn’t know how to be

I did not know where it came from

Or what it was that made me feel like this

Something so strong could not be unreal

Then one day it all came to

I looked up and you sat next to me

I was feeling this funny sensation

It became stronger when I looked at you

Yet the feeling did not fade when I thought of you

How did it take so long for me to know

That you were the one that made me feel like this

I had to stand back and think to what this means

Such strange feelings for so long

And at times I did not know what it meant

Do they mean the same then as they do now?

So many questions without answers

The heart starts to beat uncontrollably

Once calm and I think a little more

More controlled and more deeply

Looking around

There is nothing else that makes me feel this way

I decide to wait and see what happens

Why act so quickly

When there is more to find out from within

Time goes on and it is the same time and time again

Every time I see you it’s the same feelings

At times I just do not speak

I am silenced by what I am feeling

It is you these feelings are for

I never knew how strong they were

Now I am stunned

Staring at you in awe

Never would I thought I would feel like this

About you

About how much I love you.


The morning rises

A chill surrounds the air we’re in

Rumours of a warm sunny day are all around

As the morning goes on

The sun slowly but surely breaks the clouds

Breaking them apart to reveal the sun’s rays

The earth starts to warm

The temperature rises

The chill soon departs to give a glorious day

We bask in the sunshine

Providing us with energy for the day ahead

And a new lease of happiness

We bask in the sun, spreading joy

The clouds have retreated

It’s time to be free

It’s amazing what bit of sunshine can do

From dull to happy

That’s Sunshine!


In our eyes the world is reflected

The world is viewed in every eye

Only taking in what you want to see

And sometimes seeing what you never want to see

You can look away

Close your eyes

But the world will still be there

In our eyes the world is how we see it

What we see we can act upon

To make the world a better place

After all, it is our world

And our eyes have to see the world.


Walking back to the place that made you happy

Each step you take

You get a little younger

A little less wiser (but that came with age)

How far you walk is up to you

How far back do you have to go

To find a place when you were happy

Nevertheless each step you get a little younger

Walking back you live in memory lane

Going through ups and downs

Remembering things you thought were gone

By the end of the walk

It’s worth going through everything again

To get back to that place of happiness.


How did I not notice

The love that was there

It was for you

I looked for so long

For where it was meant to be

How did I not notice

It seemed lost in the wide world

With so many people

Many thoughts flew around

Not noticing something so obvious

Is a worry

Yet a relief if not surprising

I may have gone through life

Without ever noticing at all

But here I am

At a place where I have noticed

Ready to live upon what I realise

How did I not notice

I do not know

For after so long without notice

I have now.


No matter what angle I see you from

It’s still a beautiful view

From afar, from a distance

I long to walk to you

Climb to the top of your world

No matter how many times I’ve seen you

You always appear magical to me

A beautiful hill

With views to match

My only regret

Is that I never walk with you

As much as I should

Always there

The hill that inspires a mind

You’ll always be there

Waiting to be walked

The highs and lows

Just like walking with you

The highs and lows

Like life itself

I’ll never get bored of looking out for you

You’re beautiful just like the memories.


Where are you now

Where are you now?

Are you happy in the world you live

Does it take time to think of me

Do even ever think of me

Or is life that far gone

I’m just a mere speck in the line of life

Why did I let you go

To be free

I keep saying to myself

To be free

That is why I let you go

Where are you now

Where are you now?

I can only imagine your world

Is a beautiful place to be

Never a thought of me

Never time to reminisce

So where are you now

Where could I have been

If I had never let go

It’s time to go

Too much time to think

You’re free

You’re free

That’s why I let you go

Like a bird you flew away

Where are you now,

Where are you now?

I don’t think I’ll ever know

You’ll never know

I still think of you

With a smile

And hope life is well.


I want to go

Let me go

I need to go

Don’t hold me back

Take your hands off

I have to go

Stop holding me

I cannot miss this

You’re grip is too tight

I beg you to let go

I cannot reach if you keep hold

I need to go

This is not where I want to be

I want to let go

Just let go!


Like a twitch it never goes away

Always there

Always close to you

No matter what you do



It is there

It’s hard to live with

But somehow it is lived with

Like the twitch

It is a reminder

That life is not perfect

Happiness could surround you

The mindset of one is all but wrong

All but here

But never there

Life goes on

With nothing or no none to care.


The eyes open at the break of dawn

With a rub of eyes I realise the day is here

I look around and I now know the time is right

Up I get for the day ahead

After starting the day I put on my walking shoes

I pause for thought in what I am to do, to say

My head and my conscience are clear

Just like the plan for the day

For the day ahead I need something to help the mind

The trusty iPod will get me through

With a tune to fit any occasion, feeling or moment

I walk out the door and the day is bright

The walk is on and I see the route in my mind

Across the land I shall walk

Yet the surroundings could be more interesting

Passing through areas of concrete

Before reaching the green pastures of joy

However the aim of this walk is not to see

But to say what I have meant to say for ages

As I walk along the summer sun is in full blaze

The rays give me the energy, if not a little sunburn

The music plays in my ears, encouraging me on

Blocking out the day to day noise of the traffic

I check the time and I make good progress

Here today time means nothing

But I better make sure I leave time for progress

Mid way through the walk I pause for breath

A sip of the drink and the change of a song

A cloud has covered the sun, Only briefly

But a welcomed cloud to rest the sunned skin

I walk on, push on, to get to where I am headed

As I reach the outer city

The world becomes greener, a happier place

From here I leave the roads

Entering onto a rough road and a track or two

Here is when I realise what I am about to do

Why I have come all this way

The sun appears stronger than ever

I walk along the path, I hear a gentle rustle of the trees

With the trees to provide cover from the sun

A cool breeze flows along the country path

Cooling me down after such a mammoth walk

Just another short distance to walk

Past the cottage and through the field

Avoids walking round to the track

Albeit on a wet day the track is preferred

I walk up to the stables from the field

Climbing the gate I see no sign of life

Apart from the animals running around

I catch my breath

Then I hear noise from around the corner

My heart starts to beat faster

No time for a still heart today it would seem

One day I’m sure that will catch up with me

As I appear from the corner

I see who I have travelled all this way for

With her back to me she carries on

I smile and take a deep breath for the final time

I call her name and I startle her a little

Soon she turns and smiles

She seems pleased to see me

I forgot to mention

It’s been a little while since we met up

The other day

From a moment we were friends

It all turned peculiar when we had a moment

A moment I realised I had to do this

“Hi!” I said, “Sorry to make you jump”

“That’s ok, just wasn’t expecting to see you”, said with a broad smile

We caught up a little more

Nattering on about this that and everything

So natural we spoke

So pleasant it is to hear her voice

For hours I could speak to her

And not regret for any moment the time spent listening to her

I was about to take the plunge and speak of what I needed to say

I could see in her eye that she wanted to talk

She knew why I was here, but not what I was about to mention

Now I hoped she would want to hear of what I have to say

But how do you start such an important topic

Well, here goes

“About the other day….” I said,

Her eyes lit up before shyly looking at the floor and said, “I thought you might be here about that”

“I’m actually here as I want to see you more than anything, speak to you”, I said nervously

“Sorry if I made you feel awkward, I wasn’t sure what to do”, as she twiddled her thumbs

She refers to the moment we stared and looked at one another the other day

Our eyes glaring at each other, head and noses touching, one step away from a kiss

“It wasn’t awkward at all, almost perfect! Shame we were interrupted”

At this moment I was in complete awe of her, her eyes gleamed!

A moments silence followed, but a short moment at that

She said, “I never thought you liked me in that way!?, we’ve known each other for such a long time”

At this moment I moved closer, smiling and with so much to say I had to calm myself

“I’ve always liked you! From being a friend and as we’ve grown so has the feelings I have for you” – I feel relieved at this point

But I carry on; “I don’t know what you feel but that moment the other day was the best thing to ever happen”

She smiled and moved closer to me

We held hands standing in front of each other

“I like you too, how could I not!” Standing there with almost a tear in her eye

“I just thought someone like you would never like someone like me”

We embraced in a soft gentle hug

She was warm, just like I had imagined

I felt secure in her arms, this felt so right

I said, “I never thought someone like you could like me, you’re beautiful”

At that moment we our noses were touching again

This time the perfect moment happened

We kissed, we held each other

Soft, beautiful, nothing else mattered

From here we knew what we both felt

My walk was worth every step

Every moment from the waking day

I knew this was meant to be

The walk was worth everything

Even if it wasn’t to have the happy ending

She would have known how I feel

The walk home seemed a bit too much after today

A long beautiful day

Not one more step I could take for now

So I caught the bus instead.


Sit back and enjoy the ride

Cos you’re not getting off

No matter how hard you try

Whichever way life takes you

That’s the way that you go

You gotta fight for your right to live

Up and down just like the ride

Life isn’t as straightforward as you think

Sit back and enjoy the ride

Get a good book to read

Cos it’s gonna be a long journey

And when it’s your time to get off

Leave the book behind

The next person will need something to read

It’s the ride of your life

But whichever way it takes you

You need something

Or someone

To get you through.


Today I woke up with hope in my heart

I dreamt of you and the joy you brought

My eyes gleamed from the moment they opened

Today I woke up with love in my heart

A bright day ahead with no sigh in sight

No clouds in the sky to cover the beauty of the day

Today I woke up in a mass of excitement

Thinking of you after dreaming the night away

You’ve taken my breath away with all the excitement

Today I woke up and I will see you again

My dreams are answered once again

My thoughts are inspired and replenished

Today I woke up with the world at my feet

From which I intend to walk until my final day

With you as my inspiration, guide and hope.


After all I am who I am

I am who you see

After all

I cannot change the way I think

I can be influenced

But what I truly feel is known deep down

After all the life lived so far

I gain the knowledge of life

Without knowing everything there is to be known

After all for people who look at me

Make up their own mind of what they see

I am who you see

What you hear from me

Will change your view maybe

After all

I am here and I think and feel what I do

Why live life constrained to what others want

What they feel

It may not always be right

After all

My life is here to be lived

As much as possible

And after all I want you to live yours.


You fall in love with the person

And not just their looks

You connect with them

Rather than just hosting them

You believe in them

Not just believe in yourself

You reach out for them

In every moment of their need

I fell in love with you

And not just your looks

I connected with you

Rather than being a host

I believe in you

Forever more than I believe in myself

I reach out for you

In times of need, or just every day

Everyone falls in love with someone

And not just someone’s looks

Everyone has someone to connect with

Rather than being a host to someone

Everyone believes

Because there is more to believing in just themselves

Everyone reaches out

To help and support.


Who makes the world turn

Is it you?

Or is it me?

How about we turn the world together

Make the world a different place

Turn it holding hands

So we know how fast we go

Through the light of the day

And the dark of the night

We’ll stand next to each other

And make the world turn

Who makes the world turn

We do!


You see the dream

You see me

You see


You see

You see me

You see me to

You see me to believe

You don’t see the dream

You don’t see me

You don’t see

You don’t


You don’t

You don’t see

You don’t see me

You don’t see me to

You don’t see me to believe.


It could be short

Or could be sweet

The poem could talk about you

Or even refer to you

In all honesty

It’s irrelevant in what it says

Between the start and the end

As long as it says

I love you

What else could you need to know?

Many things you might say

Why you? Well…

Your personality is heartwarming

The smile upon your face is what makes me smile

The connection we have

Because you are beautiful

I love you.


I live in memories

Jumping from one to the next

Hopping from one year to another

Surrounded by them

They are here, Everywhere!

Never blocking current memories

Just reminding how life has been

And how to create a better future for all

Some memories stand out more than others

But yet the other memories are still there

Waiting in the wings ready to be thought of

We all live in memories

Every day we create our own

And we dream too of ones to create.


The usual day starts with the night before

A final thought of you before I close my eyes

The first thought in the morning is of you

The smile it brings to my face when I think of you

Nothing gets me ready for the day

More than a thought about you

As I get ready for the day

I think of you as if I were to see you

I’d like you to see me in my smartest state

However I am not always in such a way

Some days the busy tolls of life take their way

Like the usual day does

I drive along I wonder what the day will bring

The mind has plenty to concentrate on, work on

Just for a split second

I wonder what you’ll be doing while I am so far away

While I am here thinking of you, albeit brief

Sitting at my desk I write an email

Wishing I was sending one to you

The usual daily process but yet thinking of you

At the end of the day after all the work is done

It’s time to go

Time to be on the move once again

From here to there

Always something that sparks a thought

From the morning till noon

Forward to the afternoon and evening

I sit in the evening after a busy day

And ponder whether to talk to you

Sometimes it feels right

Other times it is jus time to rest and think

The usual day ends once again

The usual manic ways of life continue

But it’s ending never changes

Ending how it started

Thinking of you.


Can you ever love someone so much

Even without kissing them?

Making love to them?

(Of course there is unconditional love

Such as for family, This goes without saying

And albeit a different topic,)

The love we all look for

The one the books, poems & films are based on

What our hearts strive for

Can it be so that we never love physically

But every emotion we have is the love for one?

Love forever makes the heart fonder for someone

Can it be so without ever being physical?

Such a question ponders many answers

Many views in which I don’t think there is one answer

Does love have to be physical?

True love I mean

Can you love without holding hands, kissing, making love?

Of course you can care for someone beyond this world!

There is nothing that can be in your way to show you care

Either way, Love is there.


Drawn to you

Like a moth to a flame

Just without getting hurt

I’m drawn to you

By the positive light you shine

Moving ever closer.


The party begins

And in only have one thought on the mind

I wanna dance with you

The music plays

The people chatter loudly above the music

Conversation is good all around

Each good song I hear

Inspires me on to ask you to dance

The only thing holding me back

Is my rigid, dance-less figure

Perhaps a drink or two will loosen the joints

Get the dancing muscles moving

The party goes on

The music plays and the good vibes felt

We never danced together

However everyone had a dance

Even my funky dance moves made an appearance

The party begins

And continues

Maybe next time I’ll dance with you.


Love is natural

And so are you.


You belong with me tonight

Every night and Every day.


I’ve fallen for you

Fallen a long way

I just don’t think

I’ll get back up.