1. Unfold
Feelings unfold
Stories told
Before I get too old
I hold onto my hearts gold
Like something that shouldn’t be sold
Yet I no more withhold
My heart unfolds
In front of you
Making bold claims
Feelings unsold
I cannot say anymore
Now I cannot remould the world
To what my heart told
It feels unconsoled
One day the story will be retold
If the heart ever unfolds again
& it’ll never be cold
As there is so much to hold
Before I get too old
Let my heart unfold
Even if left unsold.
2. Flicker
I can feel the flicker of the screens light upon my back
As I hold you close I feel your arm outstretched
Eyes glow as they reach around me to see a screen
It couldn’t be much slicker at times
As I don’t even see the light flicker
I hold you closer with my skin next to yours
Closing my eyes I block the light and the world out
This time that is now is all the time I need
The longer you look the longer I hold you
Looking up I see the light upon your eyes
Fixated I am with your deep eyes
While I hold your one loose hand
I hear your heartbeat tick
Which in turn makes mine quicker
I don’t care if I feel the flicker of light
As I hold you tight next to me
I close my eyes
Feel the tick of your heart
It creates a spark every time
In my heart and mind.
3. Wrong side of the gate
As strange as it feels
I stand the wrong side of the gate
A rusty gate held by rotting wooden pillars
With all of the dreams beyond
I stand on the wrong side of the gate
Roadside I am beside myself
Wanting - Needing to go past this point
To walk off the thoughts of the moment
Fill the mind and body with fresh air, new thoughts
My heart starts to walk over the gate
Through the field to explore and more
But the heart brings me back into line
(the mind certainly groans)
Where I find myself back on this side of the gate
For a walk beyond the gate is for another day
The wrong side of the gate is not for me
Over the fence I need to be
Finding new paths and unexplored stiles
When I’m the wrong side of the gate
I merely just want to escape.
4. Son and father
[as grandfather holds grandson]
Youngest and oldest
Son and father
Grandson and grandfather
Fondest and greatest
Generations together
Hope and wisdom
Knowledge growing
In both minds
No matter what age
Youngest and oldest
Son and father.
5. She doesn’t know
She doesn’t know
As much as it does
‘It’ being my heart
My heart that loves her
All she knows
Is that I am a person
That ‘person’
Being me, in love
With her
Her eyes glint at mine
As my eyes are nothing more
Than a pair of eyes to her
‘A pair’ I say
Of deeply loving eyes
In love with her
Lost in my thoughts
I haven’t taught myself
‘Taught!?’, more like feeling fraught
As she doesn’t know
Will she ever though?
That my heart loves her.
6. Small fish
Just as the sea is settling
& growing into the surroundings
the current pushes hard into deeper water
With no knowledge of this deep environment
it’s back to being a small fish (once again)
swimming slightly lost, at least in direction
a small fish takes longer to reach their potential
In deeper water bigger fish are found
wiser and settled their knowledge is power
with only a few small bites from the small fish
if the fish had a voice it wouldn’t be very strong
To survive and thrive the small fish thinks
learns quickly from others and their surroundings
working with the bigger fish a direction is found
they work together, swim together
becoming stronger, wiser and belonging
A small fish needs the chance to grow
in mind and in size no matter how deep the water
the mind of small fish can take on the bigger
with determination vaster the sea it lives.
7. Caught in the eye
Caught in the eye
A heart from a year
or so or long ago
It was only a glimpse
Like a cursor blinking
Yet a million memories
Came flooding back
In less than a millisecond
Embrace or fade
My mind decided
- I faded
With reason
No time to pause
Like no time to look back
I walked on
Knowing my eye caught hers
A heart gone
Still living
But not now
In my world
Caught in the eye
Reminded
Moved on
Reminiscenced
Smiled
Sadness
Happiness
All from a glance
A look
A face gone by.
8. Unfollow the past
Screen flickers updates and provides
Stories and memories from the past
People from then are no more in the now
Faded hearts as lives followed different paths
There is no thought but to unfollow the past
I wish you well but our hearts are too far apart
Whether it is my failing or others demise
We have to move on and live the life we have been given
Unfollow the past but it will not be forgotten, completely
As it has had it’s time and place in the timeline of life
The time now is to unfollow the past
& capture the now and the future.
9. Jigsaw
We’re like a jigsaw
each piece of life
fitting into place
Every day
a new piece is created
fitting in place
where it needs to be
You and I
are the perfect fit
in every way
Laying next to you
we belong
like each piece of life
we live for
The jigsaw grows
who knows
when it will be finished
as I care to create
many more pieces
to be placed together.
10. Unpacking the memories
Unpacking the memories
I leave them out to be collected
For they are no longer needed here
There was a time for them
But that time is no longer valid
[& with a heavy heart]
The memories are to go
Unpacked and left
I walk away
Not even looking back
They are left and gone
No vein wrenches
Heartbeat calm
It’s been too long
To worry anymore
What’s unpacked
Makes way for the new
I just hope
I don’t get done for littering
To where I left
Memories unpacked.
11. Warming the frost
[excerpt from a future poem - but not too soon]
His/her heart is to warm to be on that cold slab
He/she gave everything he/she could so that I could be warm
If the ground he/she lay in was frosted or snow covered
The heat from his/her heart would melt the earth around him/her
His/her heart wouldn't give in without passing on the love
I wouldn’t be the person I am today without that passing
Yet now that he/she has passed the warmth continues
It continues today as it will tomorrow
Whether the weather is warm or cold